Secret Love, My Escape take me far, far away..

K E L V I N

Any Moment anything can change ;
The illusory dream of an angel who learned what love is .

GoodBye 2010, Hello 2011 !

Friday, December 31, 2010 ( 1:00 AM )

2010 is coming to an end. It has been a rough and crazy year for me as I experienced many things in life that I've not experienced for the past 18 years of my life it's like a wake up call for me. Hopefully 2011 will be a better year for me :)

My New Year Resolution is to:

Maintain my current GPA and continue to do well in my academic
Be more outspoken and have more confident in myself
Be less emo
Find the love of my life (If possible)
People around me to stay happy and cheerful! =D

Lastly, I would like to wish everyone out there A HAPPY NEW YEAR! Have a blast yea !! =D

Labels: A new beginning ? =)

Apology ♥

Sunday, November 14, 2010 ( 10:15 PM )

Dear Diary,

Many things have happen for the pass 1 month. There were happy moments & sad moments along the way. I know I have done you wrong & nothing I do or say will ever change the way you look at me. I just wanna say is that everybody have their foolish moments & I apologised for the things I've done. I'm not asking you to forgive me, just don't hate me or ignore me cuz this feeling hurts when I see the person I love hating me. It's already disappointing that I've done you wrong but it's even more disappointing to see you just walk away from my life & moving on like nothing have happen. Are you trying to say all the things we've been through was just an act? Cause to me my love for you is real & my feeling's pure. You were the first one that made me feel I was important and the only one..

xoxo

Labels: I wish the best for you ..

The Untitled.

Saturday, October 16, 2010 ( 4:58 PM )

Dear Diary,

Words can't describe what I'm feeling right now.. It's like the sandcastle being wash away by the current, Heart being pierce by a needle. I don't know who to turn too now.

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你

我假装不在意反而痛了自己

多痛都可以不能没有你

只想永远永远爱你

你知不知道我也没关系

Labels: Can't deny it can't pretend just thought you were the one..

Love

Friday, October 08, 2010 ( 2:57 PM )

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend

Somebody not afraid to say

The way they feel about you

& I'm looking for someone who understands

How I feel

Someone who keep it real

& who knows the way

& I'm looking for someone who takes me there

Wants to share

Show he cares

Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? Is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain

Someone who I can run to

Who will stay with me when it rains

Someone who I can cry with through the night

Someone who I can trust whose heart is right

& I'm looking for someone ~

Take for granted how much I care

Appreciates that I'm there

Someone who listens

& someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share.

But my heart says we've got something real

Can I trust the way I feel

Cuz my heart's been through it before

Am I'm just seeing what I want to see

Or is it true

Could you really be?

Someone to have & hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before I fall in love

& I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be

It's been to hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say ......

As I was typing this, so many things ran through my mind, whether I'm able to find true love, able to find someone who loves me more than I love myself, able to rely on that person when I'm down ~ I know I've never really been in a r/s before , not knowing the feeling of being love by someone. I have no idea what is this feeling I'm feeling now, it's something I've never felt before it's kind of warm at the same time it's just waiting for it to come out ..

Labels: Could I be in ..........

Happy Birthday!! :)

Tuesday, September 21, 2010 ( 2:43 PM )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA !! :D

you are finally legal & can learn how to drive :D :D :D

Finally exams are over it's been a hell lot of mugging & mugging finally the days of mugging for exams are over, currently having my holidays so yea haha so gonna enjoy it to the max!! I will be having camps over the next few weeks will be going to Bintan for one of my camp!! =) Currently I'm so addicted to go swimming and sun tanning !! >.<

Went to USS last Thursday, OMG it's awesome !! Though the food there is damn ex but who cares haha the rides were awesome, the scenery was nice & the atmosphere was crazy !! :D people that haven been to USS should go !! It's worth to experience it once :)
Pictures @ facebook (:

It's pretty funny how love works, you are interested in that person but that person is not so interested in you on the other hand there's people that is interested in you but you are not so interested in that person. Love sometimes don't work in both ways, some people might think it's easy to find love but actually it's not, it's even harder than passing your finals. It takes both parties to mutually love one another regardless of their flaws and weakness so yea that's my definition of "Love" I believe there's someone out there waiting for me to love as much as that person loving me back :)

Labels: I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss ♥

YOG Fever ~

Friday, August 20, 2010 ( 11:40 PM )

OMG think I'm having YOG fever haha so many handsome and pretty guys and woman from archery . Especically when they shoot the arrow is like BOOMZ. It makes me wanna try out archery as a sports. Had a fun time in YOG get to meet many new faces from all over the country, get to take pics with them and yea get to see them play real life ! It's an experience I will never forget ; I'm glad that I'm part of helping out YOG . Tml's the last match for archery *sad* means that tml's the last day I get to see all the athletics . So gonna take more pics with them ! It's now or never !! :D

Here's one of the picture that I've taken during the YOG . OMG the girl is so beautiful can she reminds me of one of the actress. She's from Greece ! & she won silver in the Youth Olympics mixed team archery competition. Congrats!

5 more days, Will I still be the same old me?

Labels: Any moment anything can change.. is it true?

Busy Busy Busy~

Wednesday, July 28, 2010 ( 9:32 PM )

It's been a month since I've blog. Many good/bad things have happen haha & wow August is coming soon. Another 28 more days & I'm turning 18 !! (Legally) haha though I got a feeling that I would be busy around that time cause of teacher's day preparation & etc.. I told my parents that on the day of my birthday I'm gonna walk into the 4D and buy myself my very first 4D number haha hopefully I got the * beginners luck wahaha..

School Activities going on:

CMS- Group Presentation (Tomorrow)

Individual Presentation (still not sure yet)

BEV- 2 case study to be submitted by 13 August 2010

YOG Training this Sat & next Sat

AJ Training

Teacher's Day performance

could things just get any better than this? Haizz..

Labels: Falling out of love is hard Falling for betrayal is worse..